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第35章 附录Ⅰ (6)

注:在西藏的船普通有两种:一种叫做ko-ba的皮作的,只顺流下行时用。因为船身很轻,到了下游后撑船的可以走上岸去,将船背在背上走到上游再载着客或货往下游航行。另一种叫做gru-shan是木头作的,专作摆渡用。这样的摆渡船普通都在船头上安一个木刻的马头,马头都是安作向后看的样子。

11

我和市上的女子

用三字作的同心结儿,

没用解锥去解,

在地上自己开了。

11

I and the girl of the market place,

Made that true love knot in three words.

I did not try to unite it with an awl,

It became untied of its own accord.

12

从小爱人的“福幡”*

竖在柳树的一边,

看柳树的阿哥自己,

请不要“向上”抛石头。

12

The fortune-bringing flag of my lover,

Is hoisted on one side of the willow tree.

Brother the willow keeper,

Do not throw stones at it your-self I pray.

注:在西藏各处的屋顶和树梢上边都竖着许多印有梵、藏文咒语的布幡,叫做rlung-bskyed或dar-lcog。藏族人民以为可以借此祈福。

13

写成的黑色字迹,

已被水和雨滴消灭;

未曾写出的心迹,

虽要拭去也无从。

13

Words written with black ink,

Have been effaced by water drops.

Unwritten designs in the mind,

(You) cannot erase them even if (you) want to.

14

嵌的黑色的印章,

话是不会说的。

请将信义的印儿,

嵌在各人的心上。

14

The black seal printed with a stamp,

Does not know how to speak,

Please stamp the seal of faith,

On the heart of each of us.

15A

有力的蜀葵花儿,

你若去作供佛的物品,

也将我年幼的松石蜂儿,

带到佛堂里去。

15A

That powerful mallow flower,

If you go and become an offering article,

Please also bring me, the youthful turquoise-colored bee,

To the temple of the gods.

15B

我的意中人儿*

若是要去学佛,

我少年也不留在这里,

要到山洞中去了。

15B

If the one in whom I have lost heart do not stay,

And goes in for the religion of the gods,

Neither I, the youth, will remain here,

But will go to the hermit’s cavern in the hills.

注:达斯本作“意中的女子”。

16

我往有道的喇嘛面前,

求他指我一条明路。

只因不能回心转意,

又失足到爱人那里去了。

16

I went to a holy Lama,

And asked for spiritual advice.

But I was unable to change my mind,

So again I drifted to (my) lover’s side.

17A

我默想喇嘛底脸儿,

心中却不能显现;

我不想爱人的脸儿,

心中却清楚地看见。

17A

The Lama’s face which I try to meditate upon,

Does not appear in my mind.

The lover’s face which I do not meditate upon,

Appears in my mind clear and distinct.

17B

若以这样的“精诚”,

用在无上的佛法,

即在今生今世,

便可肉身成佛。

17B

If one’s mind is so (inclined)

Toward the sublime doctrine.

He could with this very body

Obtain Buddhahood in this very life.

18

洁净的水晶山上的雪水,

铃荡子*上的露水,

加上甘露药的酵“所酿成的美酒”,

智慧天女*当垆。

若用圣洁的誓约去喝,

即可不遭灾难。

18

The snow water from the pure Crystal Mountain,

And dew drops from the klu-bdud-rdo-rje grass.

When elixir is used as yeast,(and brewed into wine),

(and let the) wine seller be the Goddess of wisdom.

So if we drink such wine with a sacred vow,

We shall never have to taste the waters of bitterness.

注一:“铃荡子”藏文为klu-bdud-rde-rje,因为还未能找到它的学名,或英文名,所以不知道是什么样的一种植物。

注二:“智慧天女”原文为Ye-shes-mkhah-hgro。乃Ye-shes-kyi-mkhah-hgro-ma之略。

Ye-shes意为"智慧"。mkhah-hgro-ma直译为“空行女”。此处为迁就语气,故译作“智慧天女”。按mkhah-hgro-ma一词在藏文书中都用它译梵文之dakini一字,而dakini在汉文佛经中译音作“厂茶吉泥”,乃是能盗食人心的夜叉鬼,(参看丁氏《佛学大辞典》1892页中)而在西藏传说中“空行女”即多半是绝世美人。在西藏故事中常有“空行女”同世人结婚的事,和汉族故事中的狐仙颇有点相似。

普通藏族人民常将“空行女”与“救度母”(sgrol-ma)相混。

19

当时来运转的际会,

我竖上了祈福的宝幡。

就有一位名门的才女,

请我到伊家去赴宴。*

19

When fortune smiles at me,

I hoisted a fortune-bringing flag.

The I am invited to the feast,

By a girl of a good family.

注:这一节乃是极言宝幡效验之速。

20

我向露了白齿微笑的女子们的*

座位间普遍地看了一眼,

一人差涩的目光流转时,

从眼角间射到我少年的脸上。

20

I cast a glance at a bevy of sitted lasses,

With white teeth and smiling looks,

(One of them) looked at my face bashfully,

From the corner of her eyes.

注:在这一句中藏文有lpags-pa(皮)字颇觉无从索解。

21

因为心中热烈的爱慕,

问伊是否愿作我的亲密的伴侣?

伊说:若非死别,

决不生离。

21

Because (I) desperately fell in love with (her),

(I) asked whether (she) would care to become (my) intimate companion.

“Unless we are separated by death,

We should never part alive.” Was (her) answer.

22

若要随彼女的心意,

今生与佛法的缘分断绝了;

若要往空寂的山岭间去云游,

就把彼女的心愿违背了。

22

If I reciprocate with the feelings of the girl,

My share in religion during this life will be deprived.

If I wander among the solitary mountain ranges,

It would be contradictory to the wishes of the girl.

23

工布少年的心情,

好似拿在网里的蜂儿。

同我作了三日的宿伴,

又想起未来与佛法了。*

23

The mind of the young man from Kong-po,

Is like a bee captured in a net.

He has been (my) sleeping companion for three days,

(And now he) is pondering about the future and religion.

注:这一节是一位女子讥讽伊的爱人工布少年的话,将拿在网里的蜂儿之各处乱撞,比工布少年因理欲之争而发生的不安的心情。工布kong-po乃西藏地名,在拉萨东南。

24

终身伴侣啊,我一想到你,

若没有信义和羞耻,

头髻上戴的松石,

是不会说话的啊!*

24

(When I ) think about you, (my) permanent consort,

If (you are) unfaithful and shameless,

The turquoise (which you) wear on you head,

Dose not know how to speak.

注:这一节是说女子若不贞,男子无从监督,因为能同女子到处去的,只有伊头上戴的松石。

25

你露出白齿儿微笑,

是正在诱惑我呀?

心中是否有热情,

请发一个誓儿!

25

(You are) smiling with your teeth shown out,

And is enticing (me) the youth.

Whether you have warmth in your heart,

Please prove it by an oath.

26

情人邂逅相遇,*

被当垆的女子撮合。

若出了是非或债务,

你须担负他们的生活费啊!

26

lovers who met each other by chance,

Are united by mother the wine seller,

If troubles and debts should result from this,

You must take care of them.

注:这一句乃是藏人民常说的一句成语,直译当作“情人犹如鸟同石块在露上相遇”;意思是说鸟落在某一块石头上,不是山鸟的计划,乃系天缘。以此比情人的相遇全系天缘。

27

心腹话不向父母说,

却在爱人面前说了。

从爱人的许多牡鹿*之间,

秘密的话被仇人听去了。

27

One does not confide his secrets to his parents,

But tells them to his lover.

And from the lover’s many stage,

His secret sayings are heard by his enemy.

注:此处的牡鹿,系指女子的许多“追逐者”。

28

情人艺桌拉茉*,

虽是被我猎人捉住的。

却被大力的长官

讷桑嘉鲁夺去了。*

28

My lover Yid-hphrog-lha-mo,

Was captured by me the hunter,

(But she) was robbed from me,

By Nor-bzang-rgya-lu the powerful officer.

注一:此名意译当作“夺人心神的仙女”。

注二:有一个故事藏在这一节里边,但是讲这个故事的书在北平找不到,我所认识的藏族人士又都不知道这个故事,所以不能将故事中的情节告诉读者。

29

宝贝在手里的时候,

不拿它当宝贝看;

宝贝丢了的时候,

却又急得心气上涌。

29

When the jewel is in one’s own possession,

One does not appreciate it as a jewel.

But when the jewel has passed into other hands,

Then one’s heart aches with distress.

30

爱我的爱人儿,