And for a few minutes he did say nothing.He was deep in thought.His niece was deep in thought likewise,trying to harden and prepare herself against farther questioning.She would rather die than own the truth,and she hoped by a little reflection to fortify herself beyond betraying it.
‘Independently of the interest which Mr Crawford's choice seemed to justify,’said Sir Thomas,beginning again,and very composedly,‘his wishing to marry at all so early is recommendatory to me.I am an advocate for early marriages,where there are means in proportion,and would have every young man,with a sufficient income,settle as soon after four and twenty as he can.This is so much my opinion,that I am sorry to think how little likely my own eldest son,your cousin,Mr Bertram,is to marry early;but at present,as far as I can judge,matrimony makes no part of his plans or thoughts.I wish he were more likely to fix.’Here was a glance at Fanny.‘Edmund I consider from his disposition and habits as much more likely to marry early than his brother.He indeed,I have lately thought has seen the woman he could love,which,I am convinced,my eldest son has not.Am I right?Do you agree with me,my dear?’
‘Yes,Sir.’
It was gently,but it was calmly said,and Sir Thomas was easy on the score of the cousins.But the removal of his alarm did his niece no service;as her unaccountableness was confirmed,his displeasure increased;and getting up and walking about the room,with a frown,which Fanny could picture to herself,though she dared not lift up her eyes,he shortly afterwards,and in a voice of authority,said,‘Have you any reason,child,to think ill of Mr Crawford's temper?’
‘No,Sir.’
She longed to add,‘but of his principles I have,’but her heart sunk under the appalling prospect of discussion,explanation,and probably non-conviction.Her ill opinion of him was founded chiefly on observations,which,for her cousins'sake,she could scarcely dare mention to their father.Maria and Julia-and especially Maria,were so closely implicated in Mr Crawford's misconduct,that she could not give his character,such as she believed it,without betraying them.She had hoped that to a man like her uncle,so discerning,so honourable,so good,the simple acknowledgment of settled dislike on her side,would have been sufficient.To her infinite grief she found it was not.
Sir Thomas came towards the table where she sat in trembling wretchedness,and with a good deal of cold sternness,said,‘It is of no use,I perceive,to talk to you.We had better put an end to this most mortifying conference.Mr Crawford must not be kept longer waiting.I will,therefore,only add,as thinking it my duty to mark my opinion of your conduct-that you have disappointed every expectation I had formed,and proved yourself of a character the very reverse of what I had supposed.For I had,Fanny,as I think my behaviour must have shown,formed a very favourable opinion of you from the period of my return to England.I had thought you peculiarly free from wilfulness of temper,self-conceit,and every tendency to that independence of spirit,which prevails so much in modern days,even in young women,and which in young women is offensive and disgusting beyond all common offence.But you have now shown me that you can be wilful and perverse,that you can and will decide for yourself,without any consideration or deference for those who have surely some right to guide you-without even asking their advice.You have shown yourself very,very different from anything that I had imagined.The advantage or disadvantage of your family-of your parents-your brothers and sisters-never seems to have had a moment's share in your thoughts this occasion.How they might be benefited,how they must rejoice in such establishment for you-is nothing to you.You think only of yourself;and because you do not feel for Mr Crawford exactly what a young,heated fancy imagines to be necessary for happiness,you resolve to refuse him at once,without wishing even for a little time to consider of it-a little more time for cool consideration,and for really examining your own inclinations-and are,in a wild fit of folly,throwing away from you such an opportunity of being settled in life,eligibly,honourably,nobly settled,as will,probably,never occur to you again.Here is a young man of sense,of character,of temper,of manners,and of fortune,exceedingly attached to you,and seeking your hand in the most handsome and disinterested way;and let me tell you,Fanny,that you may live eighteen years longer in the world,without being addressed by a man of half Mr Crawford's estate,or a tenth part of his merits.Gladly would I have bestowed either of my own daughters on him.Maria is nobly married-but had Mr Crawford sought Julia's hand,I should have given it to him with superior and more heartfelt satisfaction than I gave Maria's to Mr Rushworth.’After half a moment's pause-‘And I should have been very much surprised had either of my daughters,on receiving a proposal of marriage at any time,which might carry with it only half the eligibility of this,immediately and peremptorily,and without paying my opinion or my regard the compliment of any consultation,put a decided negative on it.I should have been much surprised,and much hurt,by such a proceeding.I should have thought it a gross violation of duty and respect.You are not to be judged by the same rule.You do not owe me the duty of a child.But,Fanny,if your heart can acquit you of ingratitude-’
He ceased.Fanny was by this time crying so bitterly,that angry as he was,he would not press that article farther.Her heart was almost broke by such a picture of what she appeared to him;by such accusations,so heavy,so multiplied,so rising in dreadful gradation!Self-willed,obstinate,selfish,and ungrateful.He thought her all this.She had deceived his expectations;she had lost his good opinion.What was to become of her?