Catherine attempted no longer to hide from herself the nature of the feelings which,in spite of all his attentions,he had previously excited;and what had been terror and dislike before,was now absolute aversion.Yes,aversion!His cruelty to such a charming woman made him odious to her.She had often read of such characters;characters which Mr Allen had been used to call unnatural and overdrawn;but here was proof positive of the contrary.
She had just settled this point,when the end of the path brought them directly upon the General;and in spite of all her virtuous indignation,she found herself again obliged to walk with him,listen to him,and even to smile when he smiled.Being no longer able however to receive pleasure from the surrounding objects,she soon began to walk with lassitude;the General perceived it,and with a concern for her health,which seemed to reproach her for her opinion of him,was most urgent for returning with his daughter to the house.He would follow them in a quarter of an hour.Again they parted but Eleanor was called back in half a minute to receive a strict charge against taking her friend round the Abbey till his return.This second instance of his anxiety to delay what she so much wished for,struck Catherine as very remarkable.
Chapter 23
An hour passed away before the General came in,spent,on the part of his young guest,in no very favourable consideration of his character. ‘This lengthened absence,these solitary rambles,did not speak a mind of ease,or a conscience void of reproach.’ At length he appeared;and,whatever might have been the gloom of his meditations,he could still smile with them.Miss Tilney,understanding in part her friend's curiosity to see the house,soon revived the subject;and her father being,contrary to Catherine's expectations,unprovided with any pretence for further delay,beyond that of stopping five minutes to order refreshments to be in the room by their return,was at last ready to escort them.
They set forward;and,with a grandeur of air,a dignified step,which caught the eye,but could not shake the doubts of the well read Catherine,he led the way across the hall,through the common drawing room and one useless anti chamber,into a room magnificent both in size and furniture the real drawing room,used only with company of consequence. It was very noble very grand very charming! was all that Catherine had to say,for her indiscriminating eye scarcely discerned the colour of the satin;and all minuteness of praise,all praise that had much meaning,was supplied by the General:the costliness or elegance of any room's fitting up could be nothing to her;she cared for no furniture of a more modern date than the fifteenth century.When the General had satisfied his own curiosity,in a close examination of every well known ornament,they proceeded into the library,an apartment,in its way,of equal magnificence,exhibiting a collection of books,on which an humble man might have looked with pride. Catherine heard,admired,and wondered with more genuine feeling than before gathered all that she could from this store house of knowledge,by running over the titles of half a shelf,and was ready to proceed.But suites of apartments did not spring up with her wishes. Large as was the building,she had already visited the greatest part;though,on being told that,with the addition of the kitchen,the six or seven rooms she had now seen surrounded three sides of the court,she could scarcely believe it,or overcome the suspicion of there being many chambers secreted.It was some relief,however,that they were to return to the rooms in common use,by passing through a few of less importance,looking into the court,which,with occasional passages,not wholly unintricate,connected the different sides; and she was further soothed in her progress,by being told,that she was treading what had once been a cloister,having traces of cells pointed out,and observing several doors,that were neither opened nor explained to her; by finding herself successively in a billiard room,and in the General's private apartment,without comprehending their connection,or being able to turn aright when she left them;and lastly,by passing through a dark little room,owning Henry's authority,and strewed with his litter of books,guns,and great coats.
From the dining room of which,though already seen,and always to be seen at five o'clock,the General could not forego the pleasure of pacing out the length,for the more certain information of Miss Morland,as to what she neither doubted nor cared for,they proceeded by quick communication to the kitchen the ancient kitchen of the convent,rich in the massy walls and smoke of former days,and in the stoves and hot closets of the present.The General's improving hand had not loitered here:every modern invention to facilitate the labour of the cooks,had been adopted within this,their spacious theatre;and,when the genius of others had failed,his own had often produced the perfection wanted.His endowments of this spot alone might at any time have placed him high among the benefactors of the convent.