Greville Fane's ignorance of life was a resource still more unfailing than the most approved receipt.On her saying once that the day would come when she should have written herself out I answered: "Ah, you look into fairyland, and the fairies love you, and THEY never change.Fairyland is always there; it always was from the beginning of time, and it always will be to the end.They've given you the key and you can always open the door.With me it's different; I try, in my clumsy way, to be in some direct relation to life." "Oh, bother your direct relation to life!" she used to reply, for she was always annoyed by the phrase--which would not in the least prevent her from using it when she wished to try for style.With no more prejudices than an old sausage-mill, she would give forth again with patient punctuality any poor verbal scrap that had been dropped into her.Icheered her with saying that the dark day, at the end, would be for the like of ME; inasmuch as, going in our small way by experience and observation, we depended not on a revelation, but on a little tiresome process.Observation depended on opportunity, and where should we be when opportunity failed?
One day she told me that as the novelist's life was so delightful and during the good years at least such a comfortable support (she had these staggering optimisms) she meant to train up her boy to follow it.She took the ingenious view that it was a profession like another and that therefore everything was to be gained by beginning young and serving an apprenticeship.Moreover the education would be less expensive than any other special course, inasmuch as she could administer it herself.She didn't profess to keep a school, but she could at least teach her own child.It was not that she was so very clever, but (she confessed to me as if she were afraid I would laugh at her) that HE was.I didn't laugh at her for that, for I thought the boy sharp--I had seen him at sundry times.He was well grown and good-looking and unabashed, and both he and his sister made me wonder about their defunct papa, concerning whom the little I knew was that he had been a clergyman.I explained them to myself by suppositions and imputations possibly unjust to the departed; so little were they--superficially at least--the children of their mother.There used to be, on an easel in her drawing-room, an enlarged photograph of her husband, done by some horrible posthumous "process" and draped, as to its florid frame, with a silken scarf, which testified to the candour of Greville Fane's bad taste.It made him look like an unsuccessful tragedian; but it was not a thing to trust.He may have been a successful comedian.Of the two children the girl was the elder, and struck me in all her younger years as singularly colourless.She was only very long, like an undecipherable letter.It was not till Mrs.
Stormer came back from a protracted residence abroad that Ethel (which was this young lady's name) began to produce the effect, which was afterwards remarkable in her, of a certain kind of high resolution.She made one apprehend that she meant to do something for herself.She was long-necked and near-sighted and striking, and I thought I had never seen sweet seventeen in a form so hard and high and dry.She was cold and affected and ambitious, and she carried an eyeglass with a long handle, which she put up whenever she wanted not to see.She had come out, as the phrase is, immensely; and yet Ifelt as if she were surrounded with a spiked iron railing.What she meant to do for herself was to marry, and it was the only thing, Ithink, that she meant to do for any one else; yet who would be inspired to clamber over that bristling barrier? What flower of tenderness or of intimacy would such an adventurer conceive as his reward?
This was for Sir Baldwin Luard to say; but he naturally never confided to me the secret.He was a joyless, jokeless young man, with the air of having other secrets as well, and a determination to get on politically that was indicated by his never having been known to commit himself--as regards any proposition whatever--beyond an exclamatory "Oh!" His wife and he must have conversed mainly in prim ejaculations, but they understood sufficiently that they were kindred spirits.I remember being angry with Greville Fane when she announced these nuptials to me as magnificent; I remember asking her what splendour there was in the union of the daughter of a woman of genius with an irredeemable mediocrity."Oh! he's awfully clever,"she said; but she blushed for the maternal fib.What she meant was that though Sir Baldwin's estates were not vast (he had a dreary house in South Kensington and a still drearier "Hall" somewhere in Essex, which was let), the connection was a "smarter" one than a child of hers could have aspired to form.In spite of the social bravery of her novels she took a very humble and dingy view of herself, so that of all her productions "my daughter Lady Luard" was quite the one she was proudest of.That personage thought her mother very vulgar and was distressed and perplexed by the occasional license of her pen, but had a complicated attitude in regard to this indirect connection with literature.So far as it was lucrative her ladyship approved of it, and could compound with the inferiority of the pursuit by doing practical justice to some of its advantages.Ihad reason to know (my reason was simply that poor Mrs.Stormer told me) that she suffered the inky fingers to press an occasional bank-note into her palm.On the other hand she deplored the "peculiar style" to which Greville Fane had devoted herself, and wondered where an author who had the convenience of so lady-like a daughter could have picked up such views about the best society."She might know better, with Leolin and me," Lady Luard had been known to remark; but it appeared that some of Greville Fane's superstitions were incurable.She didn't live in Lady Luard's society, and the best was not good enough for her--she must make it still better.