Caitlin, unable to speak, stormed away from Caleb and Sera.
It was too much for her to process at once. Had she just seen what she thought she had?How was it possible?
She had thought that she'd known Caleb so well, that they were closer now than ever. She was sure that they were together, a couple, and would be that way forever.She had seen their new life together clearly, and had been so sure that nothing would tear them apart.
And then this. It never occurred to her that there could be another woman in Caleb's life.How could he have not told her?
Of course, Caitlin remembered Sera from her brief visit to the Cloisters—but Caleb insisted he no longer had feelings for her, that whatever they had, it was years ago—hundreds of years ago.
So then what was she doing here?Especially now, of all times?During Caleb and Caitlin's most private moment together, when Caitlin had just arisen, fully turned, a true vampire, by his own blood?How did she even know where they were?Had Caleb invited her?He must have. But why?
Layers and layers of hurt washed over Caitlin. There was just no explaining this.She had always been afraid to make herself vulnerable, especially to guys, for this exact reason.But with Caleb, she had let go, had trusted him completely.She had made herself more vulnerable than she had with any guy she had ever been with.And he had managed to hurt her deeper, deeper than she could have ever imagined.
She still couldn't fathom how she could have misjudged him so thoroughly, how she could be so dense, so wrong. She felt like her insides were breaking apart.What would immortality be like now, without him?It would be a sentence.An eternal sentence.She felt like she wanted to die.And worse than anything, she felt like such an idiot.
“Caitlin!”Caleb yelled behind her, as she heard his footsteps chasing after her.“Please, allow me to explain.”
What could there possibly be to explain?Clearly, he had invited her here. Clearly, he still loved her.And clearly, his feelings for Caitlin weren't as strong as her feelings for him.
Caleb's hand gripped her arm, tugging at her, pleading for her to turn and face him.
But she jerked away. She couldn't stand the feel of his touch.She wanted nothing to do with him.Not ever again.
“Caitlin!”he exclaimed.“Won't you just let me explain?”
But Caitlin didn't slow. She was a different person, a different being now, and she felt it in more ways than one.Along with her newfound vampire strength, there also came a newfound vampire array of emotions.She could already feel that her emotions were stronger than they had been when human—much, much stronger.She felt everything much more deeply.She didn't just feel depressed—she felt as if she were literally dying.She didn't just feel betrayed—she felt as if she were literally being stabbed through the heart.She wanted to tear herself apart, to do anything to stop the hurt that tore her up inside.
She marched across the terrace and right into her room, slamming the oak door behind her.
“Caitlin, Caitlin please!”came the muffled voice outside her door.
Caitlin turned and slammed the door.
“Go away!”she yelled.“Go back to your wife!”
After several seconds, she finally sensed him leave.
Now it was just her. Just the silence.Caitlin sat on the edge of her bed in her small room, put her head in her hands, and cried.She sobbed and sobbed, heart-wrenching cries.She felt that all she had to live for was suddenly taken away.
She heard a whining, and felt a soft brush against her face, and looked down to see Rose, rubbing her face against Caitlin's. Rose licked Caitlin's cheeks, trying to lick away her tears.
It helped snap Caitlin out of it. She reached down and caressed Rose's face, stroking her hair.Rose jumped up onto Caitlin's lap, still small enough to do so, and Caitlin hugged her.
“I still have you, Rose，”Caitlin said.“You won't leave me, will you?”
Rose leaned back and licked her face.
But the pain was too much. Caitlin couldn't allow herself to sit in that room one second longer.She felt as if she were about to burst through the walls.
She looked to the huge window, saw the inviting night sky, and without hesitating, put Rose down, jumped from the bed, took two long strides, and leapt out.
She knew that her wings would sprout, and carry her away. But a part of her wished they wouldn't—wished that they would fail her, and let her plummet right to earth.